why?

i've been asking about that myself...
u seem not to connect with me...
i tell u my troubles but u just remain silent...
u don't share what is happening to u...
why?

why not tell me... i would have understood...
why make me a she-devil and harbor all evil thoughts...
why be so unfair...
why reject me... when i need your love
why make me suffer

why do i still love you,
despite the feeling of rejection?

sorry if i still love u like this
insane as i am, i still care.

life is but an empty dream.....just thoughts

this line was taken from a poem which i couldn' t remember the title...the poet might be Edgar Allan Poe?! of which i am a avid fan but too vague to remember who really wrote it ...:(

when i feel so poetic about life and my existence. i always dwell on writing poetry.... this is what life for me for the days, weeks and even months to come.

life.... is hard, everybody knows that,
is like the flowing water in the streams
yet with the fish swimming in it
there is a biotic environment
so life is not lifeless

life is lifeless
when there is nobody to inspire them,
when people leave without explanations,
when hopes and dreams are shuttered,
when the stops shining,
and the rain never stops falling

there is still life in it
but remains illusive
as hearts stop beating
for hearts has been broken
leaving without a glance
nothing at all!!

life is but an empty dream..lifeless...stillness...somber.

of parting ....

I find it interesting to write something about my past... i remembered the same feeling... a love lost because bf went away... i cried a lot... then wrote everything i felt.... with those fill in the blanks i recognize a strong personality i didn't have.. i lean on to GOD to keep me strong in faith and love everything around me. there is that self-worthiness of a new me...

“Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love. But rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.”

It's surprising to think that I may forget u in a matter of weeks... its possible... just don't mind me sending u all this letters... i'm feeling a little better when i write positive thoughts... thoughts not of heart ache but of joyful thoughts about life... finding a partner is not a MUST ... i just have to enjoy this FREEDOM. Freedom to think and express my emotions without hurting you.